Life is full of regrets or not. :')

There are so many things that I had done that makes me feel so sorry to myself. Usually the stupid things or that tiny little steps that I wasn't brave enough to take. Odd enough, I don't really regret much except for the things I didn't do which is clearly one of the mottos I live by..

I'd rather regret the things I have done than the things that I haven't.

My past molds the present me. I wouldn't learn to be smart if I didn't do all the stupid things in my life. I wouldn't be acting the way I am now if I didn't do the things that I had done. Well.. you could say that I like to learn or will only learn through the hard way and sometimes, I don't learn at all.

Not going to bore you with all my stories but I've been betrayed, back-stabbed and used by the people I loved. Yes, loved. I'm not the kind of person who would still be nice to you when you treated me like a trash. I DID treat you wholeheartedly, I trusted you and had faith in you and in the end, what do I get? A heartbreak.

After all these bullshits, I don't think it would ever be possible for me to trust you again. Let's just face it, it will never be the same and I will not bother myself to even try. Why? Simple, you're not worthy anymore. You don't worth my time, my effort, my sincerity, loyalty etc.

Even though I stop loving those assholes and bitches, I still want to be nice to everyone. With all the unwanted dramas/tragedies keep pestering them, some people actually stopped hoping and expecting because getting hurt again and again is just plain tiring. They stopped believing in their own race cause having hope, faith and love is just way too luxurious for them! DON'T! Don't ever lose that 3 core values, they're the pillars that hold us up and make us strong. Don't give up on the majority just because of the ungrateful minority.

Call me stupid or whatever you want, I still strongly believe that there are people that would actually love and appreciate me just the way I am and be grateful for the things that I do for them. Bless those people. They deserve my heart. ♥

Never Give Up On Friendships ♥

Everything in this world will fade eventually, we don't know when, but it will, someday. Youth fades, beauty fades, memory fades... Conscience too. Humans nowadays, are they even fit to be called one? Torture towards animals, even young kids. I seriously don't understand why and how they can do that. Watching all those torturing videos on YouTube just make me feels so sick and heart-tearing.

I'm sure we have plenty to talk on that topic, but mine today is about friendship. Yes, sad to admit that friendship fades too.

I think I'm a person who will try really hard on holding on to a friendship and make things work. I call them once in a while to hangout, for a tea, whatever just so that we can spend some time together. Not free today? I'll call again next week. That's just who I am. I take friendships very seriously, more than my boyfriend, or I just haven't met the right guy yet. :|

I know that we all have to move on, and get to know some other friends but sometimes I just don't understand how they can just cut someone loose just like that. *snap* They just stop looking for you, rejecting your invitations, then just *poof* vanished into the thin air.

I'm having a hard time accepting all those crap, as if nothing was going on between us, like we never had some happy precious memories, that you can just leave whenever you please. Aaahhh >.<

I most probably have to face this kind of problem again, again and again. Oh well, just have to learn to move on without them. Hope my friends and future friends to treat me better.LOL

I'm still in a piece, moving on still with high hopes in human. I still believe that people will be nice towards me if I do. If there is one thing that I never give up, that's hope. ♥